“Atychiphobia : Fear of failure. People with this type of phobia see things (attempts in life) as black or white. This phobia is commonly linked to the fear of being wrong, since being wrong is seen (by phobic individuals) as a failed attempt at something.”
I can honestly say that I’ve been crippled by this phobia for most of my life. And now, I’m not. Because I have failed a LOT. EVERYONE has, does, and will continue to do so. It’s part of LIFE. I can honestly say that I am GRATEFUL for all of my failures, missteps, mistakes, fuckups, falls, stumbles…I wouldn’t change a THING. Not even when I was close to death, close to taking my life. I wouldn’t change that part of my life for anything in the world. Why? Because it has made me who I am. It has made me stronger than I ever thought possible. Sounds cliche, I know. If I had heard that when I was in the depths of my depression I would have rolled my eyes. “She’s the exception”, “That’s not me.”, “She’s stronger than I am.”…THAT’S what I would have thought then, if I was reading something like this.
But it’s SO true. Those difficult, often HELLISH times, are in your life to TEST you. And you WILL NOT fail, if you don’t give up. I will make a promise to you, that if you hold on, and keep going, and NEVER give up, that everything WILL be ok. And you will astound yourself at the strength you will have gained. And the thing is…the strength is already there. You just don’t realize it until you have to USE it.